I was really looking forward to EPW’s gig at Supanova this year, and I was originally set to wrestle at the event. And although I was reasonably fresh out of surgery, I still wanted to be there. This was difficult with our limited door spots, and I couldn’t assist EPW in any way in the condition I was in. So it only made sense to stay home, while others that could help with set up and with an active role on the show could be present.
I was gutted and it just reminded me how useless I was. But of all things, I was angry – why should I lose out after how hard I’ve worked? I am injured, and injuries happen in pro wrestling. But it wasn’t from any fault of my own and I was paying for it. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Going from being an active wrestler, employed and pushing it at the gym to sitting at home all day, every day was tough for me. I am a very active person, so it messed for me to go to being an inactive wrestler, unemployed with no income and unable to go to the gym. And then I was unable to even show moral support for the company I loved.
In this video, I gave a preview of some of the rehab exercises I was doing. At this point, it was extension (straightening) and flexion (bending), and holding my leg in place for periods of time. While very simple stuff, it was difficult for me at this time. My knee brace was set so I only had sixty degrees of flexion at this point. Originally, it was only set to thirty degrees. This process of gradually upping my range of motion was so I wasn’t bending my new ligaments too much – they were trying to heal and couldn’t be forced to become too loose too quickly.
Bending the knee was very hard for me, and became increasingly more painful as my range of motion increased. But straightening was an overall tougher job – my leg looks straight in the video, but it was far from it. It was a long, slow and arduous process.
By the end of this video, I was back at the gym. This was something that I really needed. I was only unable to go for two weeks, but returning really gave me something to focus on. I had also finished most of my medications. So from the start of this video to the end, I felt as if I had gone from being sickly, angry and frustrated to feeling somewhat lifted and content.
Having previously broken my neck, I never could’ve imagined much to be harder than coming back from that. And while breaking one’s neck is a frightening-sounding ordeal, this knee injury has definitely been tougher for me. Hands down, it’s been tougher in a mental sense. But in a physical sense, my pain has been through the roof. While all knees are different, I have a completely different outlook and respect for athletes that deal with ACL injuries.